S1: THE CANDLE THAT WOULDN’T LIGHT
S2: BIDING TIME IN A BLACK HOLE S3: MIND MALADIES S4: THRONE OF CONSCIOUSNESS S5: THE CANDLE THAT WOULDN’T GO OUT S1: THE CANDLE THAT WOULDN’T LIGHT A BURNING PYRE, A BLAZING END BEYOND ITS STRETCHED FINGERTIPS, YOUR REACHS EXTENDS THIS ENERGY BURNED BRIGHTLY AS IT CAME MY WAY MOVEMENTS IN LINE WITH DESTINY, YOUR ARMS MEANT TO SAVE THROUGH YOUR TORRID GAZE I SAW CLEARLY THROUGH YOUR FLAME YOU SAUGHT TO RAISE ME BUT THESE EFFORTS ARE ALL EXTINGUISHED NOW THERE’S NO CANDLE FOR THIS FLAME, I’M OUT, I’M OUT (AHHHH!!!) MATCHSTICK SENTIMENT FIRE FROM THE GODS THAT YOU’RE LIT WITH GUESS I DIDN’T BURN THAT BRIGHT WE CAME FROM VERY SEPARATE LIGHTS NO MATTER HOW THE ENERGY DISPERSED IT’S HARD TO HOLD MY SELF WORTH WHEN EVERYTHING I DO IS IN THE DARK MY FLAME RECEDES AS I FALL APART ALL THIS POTENTIAL DEEP IN ME CRAVES A SPARK BUT WITHOUT PURPOSE, I CAN’T LIGHT WHEN I’M MARKED MEANINGLESSLY BURNT FROM BOTH ENDS WAX DRIPPED EXIT STRATEGY ’TIL I’M DEAD I CAN’T EXHAUST UNTIL I’VE BREATHED MY FINAL BREATH NO OXYGEN TO CLEANSE THEY CAN’T LIGHT THE FIRE IF I DON’T LET IT SPREAD I WON’T LET IT SPREAD WITH MY COLD SENSIBILITY, MY CLOSED DISTRESS I WON’T LET IT SPREAD HOW CAN I BURN SO BRIGHT WHEN THE NIGHT WANTS ME DEAD? ALL THIS POTENTIAL IN ME IS FOR NOUGHT ALL THIS POTENTIAL IN ME IS FOR NOUGHT ALL THIS POTENTIAL IN ME IS FOR NOUGHT ALL THIS POTENTIAL, PUT OUT, FORGOT S2: BIDING TIME IN A BLACK HOLE TIME COLLAPSED AT THE EDGE OF NOTHINGNESS THESE WALLS I BUILT TO LAST CRUMBLED WITH THE PAST AND NOTHING’S LEFT I’M FLOATING, AIMLESS ADRIFT, REMISS, IN THIS ENDLESS PIT DETACHED AND FADING FAST THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL THE LIFE I’VE LED, THE ENDLESS DREAD EXACTS ITS TOLL THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL CAN’T FIND A WAY TO BETTER DAYS WHILE BIDING TIME IN A BLACK HOLE I FEEL LIKE ENDLESSNESS IS MY BEST OPTION IT’S NEVER TOO LATE TO START WHEN TIME IS FROZEN THE GRAVITY AND WEIGHT OF MY FAILING HIDE AWAY FROM THE WORLD WHERE NOTHING CAN HURT SO DARK MY LIGHT WON’T BE ESCAPING NO ONE CAN SAVE ME NOW I’M LOST AND WON’T BE FOUND THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL LONELINESS, SELF-INFLICTED HIDE AWAY FROM MY REASONS THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL DON’T WANT YOUR BETTER DAYS I’M BIDING TIME IN THIS BLACK HOLE ENDLESSNESS IS MY ONLY OPTION THE SPACE BETWEEN NULL AND VOID NOW I SOUGHT THE SOLITUDE OF THIS PLACE IN THE EMPTINESS OF SPACE CELESTIAL RECOVERY FROM SOCIETY LOCKING MYSELF SO FAR AWAY I WONDER NOW, AT THE END WAS IT FOR THIS VOID THAT I WAS MEANT? HIDE AWAY FROM THE EVERYDAY NO SHRED OF LIFE WAS I TO GIVE? SO MANY PEOPLE I COULD’VE SAVED ALL THE LIVES BRIGHTENED ALONG THE WAY BUT NOW THAT’S ALL EVISCERATED I’VE NOTHING LEFT BUT MY SHAME AND THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL COLLAPSED FOR NOUGHT GONE FROM THE WORLD FOR GOOD THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL THE MEMORY ERASED WHILE BIDING TIME IN MY BLACK HOLE S3: MIND MALADIES SICK AND TWISTED PREDILECTION, MISFIT, NITWIT HOLE INSIDE YOUR HEAD AND NOW YOU’RE CLAWING YOUR WAY TO THE CENTER WHATCHA GONNA FIND IN THERE YA SENSELESS WEAKLIN’? NOTHING BUT AN EMPTY SHELL TURN BACK, BEGONE! THIS PLACE IS HELL! (HELL! HELL!) WHAT DO I DO? I’M TRAPPED IN MY MIND AND IT’S CRUMBLING THROUGH! HELL! HELL! WHAT DO I SAY? I CAN’T FIND THE STRENGTH TO FIGHT THIS WAY! (HELL! HELL!) IT’S TAKING CONTROL… MY DEMONS ARE FEEDING AND TAKING IT ALL! WHAT DO I DO? WHAT DO I SAY? THIS MIND MALADY RIPS MY SPIRIT AWAY! RIP ME AWAY! GRIM INTENTION’S GOT YOU DISTANT, DON’T IT, WORTHLESS? HOLE INSIDE YOUR HEART AND YOU CAN’T FIND SOMEONE TO MAKE IT BETTER WHATCHA GONNA DO WHEN SOMEONE ENDS IT, SO QUICK? FITTING END FOR A MIND THAT’S UNWELL THIS PLACE IS YOUR HELL! THERE’S NO GETTING OUT! (HELL! HELL!) WHAT DO I DO? I’M DROWNING LIES, BEING BURIED BY TRUTH! (HELL! HELL!) WHAT DO I SAY? THE PAIN SEEPS THROUGH, I’M LOST IN THE FRAY! (HELL! HELL!) WHAT IS THIS VOICE? WHY ARE MY THOUGHTS ATTACKING BY CHOICE? WHAT DO I DO? WHAT DO I SAY? MY MIND MALADY HAS ME COUNTING MY DAYS! I DON’T WANT TO STAY LIVING IN CONSTANT FEAR AND PAIN OF WHAT THAT VOICE MIGHT SAY THEN I THINK ON WHO I WANT TO BE OF MY THOUGHTS AND HOPES AND DREAMS OF THE PERSON THAT I BECAME THEN I HEAR THAT VOICE BERATING ME AND IT’S LIKE NOTHING I DO SUSTAINS I’M NOT WORTH IT, I’M NOT OKAY! (I AM NOT VALUABLE) (YOU ARE, YOU ARE) (I AM NOT MEANINGFUL) (YOU ARE, YOU ARE) (I AM NOT WORTH IT) (YOU ARE, YOU ARE) (I AM NOT LOVED) (YOU ARE, YOU ARE!) I AM NOT THIS VOICE IN MY HEAD! BREAK THE CYCLE OF INTERNAL CONFLICT! TEACH YOUR SELF TO KNOW YOUR WORTH! FIND HOPE IN YOUR OWN MEANING! YOU HAVE THE POWER TO SHAKE THE EARTH! RISE ABOVE THESE VICIOUS THOUGHTS RISE ABOVE ALL THAT HAS HELD YOU DOWN DON’T LET THIS BE YOUR ENDING YOU HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO GIVE I AM VALUABLE! I AM MEANINGFUL! I AM WORTH IT! I AM LOVED! S4: THRONE OF CONSCIOUSNESS TRANSCENDENT OF MIND REMOVED FROM TIME NOT LOOKING BACK OR FORWARD NOW THE PRESENT’S ALL WE OWN UNTETHER MY SOUL AND SHOW ME HOW TO GROW ATOP MY THRONE OF CONSCIOUSNESS THIS REALITY OPENS UP I FEEL THE WORLD AT MY FINGERTIPS MANIFEST THE INFINITE, CREATION LIMITLESS THIS IS POWER THAT WE ALL HAVE TO CHOOSE EVERYDAY A NEW DECISION, EVERY INFLUENCE WE ARE GIVEN STEP BACK FROM YOUR VIRULENT THOUGHTS REALIZE THAT YOU’VE GOT EVERY RIGHT TO CREATE THE PATH BEFORE YOU I CAN FEEL IT NOW THE SUN ON MY FACE THE WARMTH I’D LONGED TO TASTE AND NOW, I SEE MYSELF IN EVERY RIPPLE AND WAKE THE PERSON I WAS MEANT TO BE (PULL IT OUT) SEE YOURSELF AS YOU WERE MEANT TO BE (REACHING OUT) YOU HAVE TO TAKE WHAT YOU DESERVE NOW (PULL IT OUT) REMOVE YOURSELF FROM TIME AND YOU’LL SEE (REACHING OUT) THE HANDS THAT WILL SAVE YOU ARE YOUR OWN YOU’VE GOT TO WANT IT YOU’VE GOT TO WANT IT WITH EVERYTHING YOU’VE GOT I CAN FEEL IT NOW THE SUN ON MY FACE THE WARMTH I’D LONGED TO TASTE AND NOW, I SEE MYSELF IN EVERY RIPPLE AND WAKE THE PERSON I WAS MEANT TO BE ATOP THIS THRONE OF CONSCIOUSNESS FEELING ALIVE, I WAS BORN FOR THIS BORN TO BE ME BORN TO BE THE ME I’M SUPPOSED TO BE DON’T GIVE UP DON’T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF DON’T GIVE UP DON’T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF S5: THE CANDLE THAT WOULDN’T GO OUT I AM THE FLAME THAT WON’T GO OUT I AM THE FLAME THAT WON’T GO OUT BURNING I’M ON FIRE NOW THE SPARK THAT WOULDN’T START BLAZING SUPERNOVA BURNING DOWN RAGING I’M AT THE TOP OF MY GAME FOUND MY ANSWERS NOW EVERYDAY’S A PASSING DREAM I CAN MANAGE I FOUND THE STRENGTH TO MOVE TO FACE THE WORLD (ALL IT’S TURNS) TO FIGHT FOR MY TRUTH THEY SAY “HEAVEN’S NOT A PLACE THAT YOU GO WHEN YOU DIE IT’S THAT MOMENT IN LIFE WHERE YOU ACTUALLY FEEL ALIVE” GO! LIVE THIS LIFE! BURN BRIGHT! BURN QUICK AND BURN BRIGHT! I AM THE FLAME THAT WON’T GO OUT I AM THE FLAME THAT WON’T GO OUT I AM THE FLAME THAT WON’T GO OUT
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Author"Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn't impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls." - Anais Nin Archives
February 2023
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