GraveWalker

​"No, it's not meant to be like this...
Take me with you!
Take me too!
Wait, where are you going?
Stop, please! PLEASE!
STOP DAMMIT STOP!
Come back.
I don't belong here
It's not meant to be like this
I'm not supposed to stay 
People come and go for less
Some people don't have a choice
Others are taken unjustly
This was all my fault
I am the only one to blame 
Why are they all taken and I'm left behind?
I'm not supposed to stay
​I don't belong here 
It's not meant to be like this"

There are some things we aren't meant to walk away from 
The kinds of things that make you question the fiber of reality
The life-ruining, all-encompassing end as it was thought to be 
The finality as it approaches you from the darkness 
The Night Thief, the fear of a quick-stripped, unfulfilled existence
death..... death.....

I felt the speed, the rush of the road as it blew past
The invincibility of the moment, the winding turns 
The flight of the world past my eyes, past my life 
A late night for a long drive, a long drive for eternal night 
"They all say I should have died,
​If that's what is right, then why am I alive?"
Caught the turn the wrong way, the verdict was
The rubber screeching and rancid as it burned
Contact with the outer edge of the street - resistance
A choppy outline of the ground - inverted
And my body, lost in this mess 
A still point at the crux of a moment, on the edge of inexistence 
And then a crash, a cloud of obscurity, and then
calm....................
The world looks so different from this angle
What's left of my world, that is
The path I walked beneath my feet now raised far above my head
Flashing blue lights and their bright white eyes
I see you. I SEE you.
Why do I still see? Do you see me? 
Why am I still breathing? 
"They say I should have died,
If that's what is right, then why am I alive?"

There are some things we aren't meant to walk away from
A midnight flight doesn't end right but I'm alright? 
How am I alright? What gives me the right? 
None of this is right. 
"I don't belong here,
It's not meant to be like this
I'm not supposed to stay"
This is rejection. 
This is cold-hearted denial.
I was so close to the end only to be told that it wasn't my time
Why?
"People come and go for less"
I confronted the Night Thief but he'd since turned over a new leaf
Said he wasn't ready to take me just yet 
I walked up to Death's cold door and knocked and he told me to
go. away.
For what reason am I being kept here?
Halfway in the grave and pulled out unwillingly and for what?
Why?
​"Why are they all taken and I'm left behind?"
Left behind to face the litigation, representation of the law
The raw retribution of of legality and totality 
In addition to the ambiguity of causality of my survival 
My revival? No. This is a funeral in and of its own
Made out to be a criminal, those cynical eyes from the panel
Judge my fate and lock me away 
I'm on the outside now, I'm one of them now
The world looks so different from this angle
What's left of my world, that is
The path I walked beneath my feet now raised far above my head
Options erased, bright future now a waste 
Can't look at my own face without judgment and hate
For what reason am I being kept here?
What good do I have left to give? 
Why am I still alive when all I want is to die?

There are some things we aren't meant to walk away from
Scrapped metal and a scrapped life left in the dust
A lonely ditch with a lonely absence of presence 
A man raised from a shamed grave and for what? 
My mind keeps saying over and over
"They all say I should have died,
If that's what is right, then why am I alive?"
But that doesn't change the simple fact
That doesn't change that no matter the contrary I desire 
i'm. still. here.
I'm still here breathing and walking among you all
From darkness into light once more, from light to life thereafter
I've fallen on the living side of the edge I walked
I don't know why I'm still here 
I don't think I'm meant to know why I'm still here
Whether this is a second chance at another grand exit
Or the opportunity to hold onto my life and protect it
It's a second life I've been given 
Another walk amongst the living 
And here I stand, among you all
Ready to fulfill it 
Ready to embrace it
And to discover the purpose of my re-existence

I am... the GraveWalker.

death..... death.....
go. away.
i'm. still. here.