Guarded (2015)

I didn't trust you from the start, but I should have
Guarded heart, fearful part
The one once broken resolves to never break again
So he shuts his mind for a time and lets no one in
Until the pretty girl comes knock, knock, knockin' 

Let me in!
Let me in! 

Well someone once told me love is nothing without trust
And I didn't trust you from the start but I should have

Where does this winding road lead us both? 
Divergent goals in a single soul
Wanna go my own way but I want you here with me

Where does this winding road lead us both? 
Intentions slow without saying a word
Wanna go my own way but right here you'll remain

Let me in!
Let me in! 

Why'd you have to open me up?
Make me feel, no big deal, pull the layers back and peel
At the flesh and the seams like the surgery was routine
But your implements were unclean, now I'm infected, obscene
I had a dream 
A dream that someday you and I would be happy
You rooted it there, heart ensnared, made me care 
Made me feel like my empty space was replaced, no longer bare
But this was no surgery, it was perjury
You told me everything would be fine
As I sit here under white lights
Dazed, sedated and wondering why 
Where's my waiver? Did I sign it? 
This is bullshit and I'm sorry
I thought feeling again would be easy but instead I'm left here asking - 

Where does this winding road lead us both? 
Divergent goals in a single soul
Wanna go my own way but I want you here with me

Where does this winding road lead us both? 
Intentions slow without saying a word
Wanna go my own way but right here you'll remain

Never trusted you from the start but I should have
Should have heard you out when you said that - 

"I told you from the day that this began I was lost
A million stars in your eyes but not as bright as his were
​We could be happy, this much could be true
​But you won't ever mean what he meant to me
Nor will you get the opportunity

I told you from the day this began I wasn't ready 
But you stared at me with blithe reprieve and stayed
​All along I couldn't be what you wanted me to be
I told you from the start, I told you so 
​Just go the road you were meant to go
Even if it's alone"

So I guess this answers the question of - 

Where does this winding road lead us both? (Nowhere)
Divergent goals in a single soul
Wanna go my own way but want you here with me (Can't have you with me) 

Where does this winding road lead us both? (Nowhere)
Intentions slow without saying a word
Wanna go my own way but right here you'll remain (Here you'll remain)

So the one once broken resolves to never break again
So he shuts his mind for a time and lets no one in
Until the pretty girl comes knock, knock, knockin'