My Mind Is My Demon

a beat, a lie, a break, a divide
lost and broken and buried alive

FUCK EVERYTHING 
EVERYTHING THAT WAS MINE

corrupt the orthodox central station
eradicate the sentiment of nations
make everything that you love become none
force all light to die out like the sun

your head and your heart are at war; undone 
belligerent and destructive; so damn cumbersome

what is religious is contagious to the fortuitous 
what is godsend to the holy men is presumptuous 
what is gentrified and objectified is cantankerous 
what is favorable to the overlord is incredulous 

FUCK EVERYTHING THEY ARE

was it the war that caught you so out of sorts?
lost and alone and the victim of choice? 
listening to the heart you'd abandoned; of course
or binding yourself to the burden you bore? 
what a shame your existence became such a chore 
you say "fuck everything" so just end it evermore 

JUST. END IT. EVERMORE. 

this is what it screams to me
without control, indefinitely 
obliquely, yet decidedly 
like I make the choice, half-heartedly
escaping decision, haphazardly
as my presence evanescences, blithely 

am I in control? am I all but gone?
am I reconcilable or just a zero loss?

your head and your heart are at war; become 
transcendent, resplendent; an ideal above 

I am not the one to lead the charge 
against your faith or mine or the lack thereof 
I am not the one to give berth to a cause 
I'm the one striving to live a life of love 
give back with no slack and no case for remorse 
my mind is my demon and it sickens and burns 
fight? oh I try but it cripples and destroys 
my mind is all evil and it's tainting my soul 

FUCK EVERYTHING
EVERYTHING THAT WAS MINE
JUST. END IT. EVERMORE.

EVERMORE. EVERMORE. 

My mind is my demon, you can't save my soul.