The Mind Has Gone (Indecision & Fear) (2009)

Played far from the surface
This facade you and I both conform to
Betwixt denial of something
Or arrogance on part of another
I cannot read your intentions so clearly
And thus ever deeper am I drawn 
Into you, into the night
Into something so completely against principle
For you, I am going against all principle

Obtuse thoughts dripped from concave fixtures
Deriving complex interjections from irrational minds
Don't say that you can save me
There is no coming back from this type of forethought
No type of recovery from the trauma induced thereof
Don't try and think that you can save me
The mind has gone away for good

It is all forfeit
The pain, the weakness
The indecision and the worry
What's the point?
When I won't see the tangible outcome
I'll sit here playing out my ideals
While the world will go it's own course
I'll be a still point in that turning world
A timeless thought stuck in a decaying frame
And with the world spinning
So will you too
Far away from the grasp of my ever-fading emotions

So this is where the story ends
With me sitting on a wintery knoll watching the snow fall
And you in a well-furnished home raising a happy family
While I brace myself against the cold
I'll smile
And know that I was the reason things never went right

I'll know that my indecision and fear
Are the reasons I'm always sitting alone in the cold at night