Unrequited

Lost the grip, thought it slipped 
But it wasn’t 
It just wasn’t 
Was chasing the manifestation of something 
That I thought you stood for 
A life, a creation, a representation 
But the will wasn’t there 
The heart just wasn’t full
Or so I’m told 
The fearless and bold as they grow old 
Lost loving sentences in the deluge of angry rhetoric 
Was my anger misplaced?
Did my overexerted rage let your sins be erased? 
How did I let the past put me last? 
Get a grip, let it slip, accept what it is
Goddamn I’m really sorry for everything I did
Or didn’t do, and what that meant to you 
For lack of all I was or wouldn’t become 
Damn I’m really sorry you don’t value who I am 
Because I’m happy with where I’m at 
​Love my life and my plans 
Got the world in my palm and love it with my all
But that doesn’t seem enough for you
It’s all about you and what you’ve got or not 
Value in the dollar sign 
Emotional intelligence as it’s undermined  
Validation in this monotony 
Why can’t you just love me for me?
Growing tired of the farce, the loss of trust 
Get me out of this hellhole of lust 
I’ve come to terms with the person I am 
And grown to love him,
Whether you care or don’t give a shit