Macon Walker
  • PROOF OF EXISTENCE
  • STATEMENT OF INTENT
  • OUTREACH
  • PROOF OF EXISTENCE
  • STATEMENT OF INTENT
  • OUTREACH

                                               proof of existence...


Working Title: Untethered Mind EP

2/18/2023

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S1: THE CANDLE THAT WOULDN’T LIGHT
S2: BIDING TIME IN A BLACK HOLE
S3: MIND MALADIES
S4: THRONE OF CONSCIOUSNESS 
S5: THE CANDLE THAT WOULDN’T GO OUT

S1: THE CANDLE THAT WOULDN’T LIGHT
A BURNING PYRE, A BLAZING END
BEYOND ITS STRETCHED FINGERTIPS, YOUR REACHS EXTENDS
THIS ENERGY BURNED BRIGHTLY AS IT CAME MY WAY
MOVEMENTS IN LINE WITH DESTINY, YOUR ARMS MEANT TO SAVE
THROUGH YOUR TORRID GAZE I SAW CLEARLY
THROUGH YOUR FLAME YOU SAUGHT TO RAISE ME
BUT THESE EFFORTS ARE ALL EXTINGUISHED NOW
THERE’S NO CANDLE FOR THIS FLAME, I’M OUT, I’M OUT

(AHHHH!!!)

MATCHSTICK SENTIMENT
​FIRE FROM THE GODS THAT YOU’RE LIT WITH
GUESS I DIDN’T BURN THAT BRIGHT
WE CAME FROM VERY SEPARATE LIGHTS
NO MATTER HOW THE ENERGY DISPERSED
IT’S HARD TO HOLD MY SELF WORTH
WHEN EVERYTHING I DO IS IN THE DARK
MY FLAME RECEDES AS I FALL APART

ALL THIS POTENTIAL DEEP IN ME CRAVES A SPARK
BUT WITHOUT PURPOSE, I CAN’T LIGHT WHEN I’M MARKED

MEANINGLESSLY BURNT FROM BOTH ENDS
WAX DRIPPED EXIT STRATEGY ’TIL I’M DEAD 
I CAN’T EXHAUST UNTIL I’VE BREATHED MY FINAL BREATH
NO OXYGEN TO CLEANSE
THEY CAN’T LIGHT THE FIRE
IF I DON’T LET IT SPREAD 

I WON’T LET IT SPREAD
WITH MY COLD SENSIBILITY, MY CLOSED DISTRESS
I WON’T LET IT SPREAD
HOW CAN I BURN SO BRIGHT WHEN THE NIGHT WANTS ME DEAD?

ALL THIS POTENTIAL IN ME IS FOR NOUGHT
ALL THIS POTENTIAL IN ME IS FOR NOUGHT
ALL THIS POTENTIAL IN ME IS FOR NOUGHT

ALL THIS POTENTIAL, PUT OUT, FORGOT

S2: BIDING TIME IN A BLACK HOLE

TIME COLLAPSED AT THE EDGE OF NOTHINGNESS
THESE WALLS I BUILT TO LAST 
CRUMBLED WITH THE PAST AND NOTHING’S LEFT
I’M FLOATING, AIMLESS
ADRIFT, REMISS, IN THIS ENDLESS PIT
DETACHED AND FADING FAST

THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL
THE LIFE I’VE LED, THE ENDLESS DREAD
EXACTS ITS TOLL 

THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL
CAN’T FIND A WAY TO BETTER DAYS WHILE
BIDING TIME IN A BLACK HOLE

I FEEL LIKE ENDLESSNESS IS MY BEST OPTION
IT’S NEVER TOO LATE TO START WHEN TIME IS FROZEN

THE GRAVITY AND WEIGHT OF MY FAILING
HIDE AWAY FROM THE WORLD
WHERE NOTHING CAN HURT
SO DARK MY LIGHT WON’T BE ESCAPING 
NO ONE CAN SAVE ME NOW 
I’M LOST AND WON’T BE FOUND

THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL 
LONELINESS, SELF-INFLICTED
HIDE AWAY FROM MY REASONS 

THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL
DON’T WANT YOUR BETTER DAYS I’M 
BIDING TIME IN THIS BLACK HOLE

ENDLESSNESS IS MY ONLY OPTION
THE SPACE BETWEEN NULL AND VOID NOW

I SOUGHT THE SOLITUDE OF THIS PLACE
IN THE EMPTINESS OF SPACE
CELESTIAL RECOVERY FROM SOCIETY
LOCKING MYSELF SO FAR AWAY 

I WONDER NOW, AT THE END
WAS IT FOR THIS VOID THAT I WAS MEANT?
HIDE AWAY FROM THE EVERYDAY
NO SHRED OF LIFE WAS I TO GIVE? 

SO MANY PEOPLE I COULD’VE SAVED
ALL THE LIVES BRIGHTENED ALONG THE WAY
BUT NOW THAT’S ALL EVISCERATED
I’VE NOTHING LEFT BUT MY SHAME AND 

THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL
COLLAPSED FOR NOUGHT
GONE FROM THE WORLD FOR GOOD

THIS WORMHOLE, MY SOUL
THE MEMORY ERASED WHILE
BIDING TIME IN MY BLACK HOLE

S3: MIND MALADIES

SICK AND TWISTED PREDILECTION, MISFIT, NITWIT
HOLE INSIDE YOUR HEAD 
AND NOW YOU’RE CLAWING YOUR WAY TO THE CENTER

WHATCHA GONNA FIND IN THERE YA SENSELESS WEAKLIN’?
NOTHING BUT AN EMPTY SHELL
TURN BACK, BEGONE! THIS PLACE IS HELL!

(HELL! HELL!)
WHAT DO I DO? I’M TRAPPED IN MY MIND AND IT’S CRUMBLING THROUGH!
HELL! HELL! 
WHAT DO I SAY? I CAN’T FIND THE STRENGTH TO FIGHT THIS WAY!
(HELL! HELL!) 
IT’S TAKING CONTROL… MY DEMONS ARE FEEDING AND TAKING IT ALL!

WHAT DO I DO? WHAT DO I SAY? 
THIS MIND MALADY RIPS MY SPIRIT AWAY! 

RIP ME AWAY! 

GRIM INTENTION’S GOT YOU DISTANT, DON’T IT, WORTHLESS?
HOLE INSIDE YOUR HEART
AND YOU CAN’T FIND SOMEONE TO MAKE IT BETTER

WHATCHA GONNA DO WHEN SOMEONE ENDS IT, SO QUICK? 
FITTING END FOR A MIND THAT’S UNWELL
THIS PLACE IS YOUR HELL! THERE’S NO GETTING OUT! 

(HELL! HELL!)
WHAT DO I DO? I’M DROWNING LIES, BEING BURIED BY TRUTH!
(HELL! HELL!) 
WHAT DO I SAY? THE PAIN SEEPS THROUGH, I’M LOST IN THE FRAY!
(HELL! HELL!) 
WHAT IS THIS VOICE? WHY ARE MY THOUGHTS ATTACKING BY CHOICE? 

WHAT DO I DO? WHAT DO I SAY? 
MY MIND MALADY HAS ME COUNTING MY DAYS!

I DON’T WANT TO STAY 
LIVING IN CONSTANT FEAR AND PAIN OF WHAT THAT VOICE MIGHT SAY

THEN I THINK ON WHO I WANT TO BE 
OF MY THOUGHTS AND HOPES AND DREAMS
OF THE PERSON THAT I BECAME

THEN I HEAR THAT VOICE BERATING ME
AND IT’S LIKE NOTHING I DO SUSTAINS
I’M NOT WORTH IT, I’M NOT OKAY!

(I AM NOT VALUABLE)
(YOU ARE, YOU ARE)
(I AM NOT MEANINGFUL)
(YOU ARE, YOU ARE) 
(I AM NOT WORTH IT)
(YOU ARE, YOU ARE)
(I AM NOT LOVED)
(YOU ARE, YOU ARE!)

I AM NOT THIS VOICE IN MY HEAD! 
​
BREAK THE CYCLE OF INTERNAL CONFLICT! 
TEACH YOUR SELF TO KNOW YOUR WORTH! 
FIND HOPE IN YOUR OWN MEANING!
YOU HAVE THE POWER TO SHAKE THE EARTH! 
RISE ABOVE THESE VICIOUS THOUGHTS
RISE ABOVE ALL THAT HAS HELD YOU DOWN
DON’T LET THIS BE YOUR ENDING
YOU HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO GIVE

I AM VALUABLE! 
I AM MEANINGFUL! 
I AM WORTH IT! 
I AM LOVED!

S4: THRONE OF CONSCIOUSNESS

TRANSCENDENT OF MIND
REMOVED FROM TIME 
NOT LOOKING BACK OR FORWARD NOW
THE PRESENT’S ALL WE OWN
UNTETHER MY SOUL AND
SHOW ME HOW TO GROW 
ATOP MY THRONE OF CONSCIOUSNESS 
THIS REALITY OPENS UP 

I FEEL THE WORLD AT MY FINGERTIPS
MANIFEST THE INFINITE, CREATION LIMITLESS
THIS IS POWER 
THAT WE ALL HAVE TO CHOOSE
EVERYDAY A NEW DECISION, EVERY INFLUENCE WE ARE GIVEN
STEP BACK
FROM YOUR VIRULENT THOUGHTS
REALIZE THAT YOU’VE GOT EVERY RIGHT 
TO CREATE THE PATH BEFORE YOU

I CAN FEEL IT NOW
THE SUN ON MY FACE 
THE WARMTH I’D LONGED TO TASTE 
AND NOW, I SEE MYSELF
IN EVERY RIPPLE AND WAKE
THE PERSON I WAS MEANT TO BE

(PULL IT OUT)
SEE YOURSELF AS YOU WERE MEANT TO BE
(REACHING OUT)
YOU HAVE TO TAKE WHAT YOU DESERVE NOW
(PULL IT OUT)
REMOVE YOURSELF FROM TIME AND YOU’LL SEE
(REACHING OUT)
THE HANDS THAT WILL SAVE YOU ARE YOUR OWN

YOU’VE GOT TO WANT IT
YOU’VE GOT TO WANT IT WITH EVERYTHING YOU’VE GOT

I CAN FEEL IT NOW
THE SUN ON MY FACE 
THE WARMTH I’D LONGED TO TASTE 
AND NOW, I SEE MYSELF
IN EVERY RIPPLE AND WAKE
THE PERSON I WAS MEANT TO BE

ATOP THIS THRONE OF CONSCIOUSNESS
FEELING ALIVE, I WAS BORN FOR THIS 
BORN TO BE ME
BORN TO BE THE ME I’M SUPPOSED TO BE

DON’T GIVE UP
DON’T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF

DON’T GIVE UP
DON’T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF

S5: THE CANDLE THAT WOULDN’T GO OUT

I AM THE FLAME THAT WON’T GO OUT
I AM THE FLAME THAT WON’T GO OUT

BURNING
I’M ON FIRE NOW 
THE SPARK THAT WOULDN’T START 
BLAZING SUPERNOVA BURNING DOWN
RAGING
I’M AT THE TOP OF MY GAME
FOUND MY ANSWERS 
NOW EVERYDAY’S A PASSING DREAM
I CAN MANAGE
I FOUND THE STRENGTH TO MOVE
TO FACE THE WORLD (ALL IT’S TURNS)
TO FIGHT FOR MY TRUTH

THEY SAY
“HEAVEN’S NOT A PLACE THAT YOU GO WHEN YOU DIE
IT’S THAT MOMENT IN LIFE WHERE YOU ACTUALLY FEEL ALIVE”

GO!

LIVE THIS LIFE! 
BURN BRIGHT! 
BURN QUICK AND BURN BRIGHT! 

I AM THE FLAME THAT WON’T GO OUT
I AM THE FLAME THAT WON’T GO OUT

I
   AM
         THE 
               FLAME
                        THAT 
                             WON’T
                                         GO
                                               OUT
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