Youth (2018)

I remember it all now
The way it felt
The time, the era
Goddamn it was just yesterday
​But it wasn't
The innocence of the child
That I was
That I'm not anymore

The song
The resonance
The incandescence of a past age
My youth calls
A forgotten part of life
Begging to be heard again
He is not dead 
The me who sleeps in the deep

He's right there, smiling

Like there was something
That I'm meant to see 
The reverie, the memory
Crypt-digging
In a live mind
What does he want me to find?

A scrap of happiness?
An ash of aptitude? 
A remembrance of innocence?
What gift does the past give? 

All I remember is a simple bedroom
With a child's bed facing an open window
A comforting chair
A stream of sunlight, a gentle wind
And the songs of memory
Bringing me peace
Over and over again

And he's just sitting there... smiling

What do I have to do to get back there?
What do I have to do to be him? 

But wait...

I am him. 

And therein lies the pain. I remember this place. I remember that face and how I wore it that way. Like sadness was never ingrained. Like I'd never felt another way. I remember this place. I was happy this way. 

But some things change. 

​Life doesn't always continue this way.